Camila Cabello posts heartfelt essay on body insecurity
Camila Cabello has spoken openly about her body insecurities in the past, publicly criticizing body shamers for comments about her appearance.
The music star, 25, continued the conversation about body insecurity with a touching post on Instagram. On Saturday, April 2, Cabello shared a screenshot of a lengthy post in a carousel post, pairing the essay with a selfie where the singer looked frustrated and unamused. To start off the post, she said that every time she goes to a particular, unnamed beach club in Miami, she gets photographed by the paparazzi.
“Somehow when I check in the dads know and put me in my bikini and each time I felt super vulnerable and unprepared,” she wrote. “I wore bikinis that were (sic) small and didn’t pay attention to how I looked, then I saw pictures online and comments and I was so upset. I remembered when it impacted my self-esteem that I was thinking the thoughts of the culture and not my own A culture that has become so accustomed to an image of what a “healthy” female body looks like that doesn’t is absolutely not real for many women.
Cabello went on to point out that harmful tactics like “Photoshop, restrictive diet, too much exercise” and more make people’s bodies “different from what they are now and in their natural shape, when we breathe deeply, when we eat a meal, when we let the waves rush us.
“I remember that, I listen to podcasts about intuitive eating, I follow women who come to terms with their cellulite, their stretch marks, their bellies, their bloating, and their weight fluctuations…and again,” Cabello said. “I’m a single woman in my twenties in the middle of a ton of promos and I want to feel ‘good’.”
Cabello said she took precautionary measures and bought a new bikini, a “nice outfit”, put on lip gloss and “didn’t eat anything too heavy” before going in the water because she knew she was going to be photographed by paparazzi on the beach.
“I held my core so tight my abs hurt and I wasn’t breathing and barely smiling and I was so aware of where we were the whole time that I couldn’t let go and relax and do what we’re supposed to do when we go out into the wild,” she said. “I tried to pretend they weren’t there but I couldn’t and held my breath from my lounge chair by the ocean. I watched a group of toddlers laughing of excitement at the sight of the waves rolling over them – no sunglasses, no jewelry, no self-awareness, just the innocence of children – that’s the feeling I’ve always gone out into nature for.
Cabello said she knew she “looked good” in the photos and thought it would give her a sense of accomplishment, but instead said she had “never had worse to the beach”.
“I felt the emptiness and sadness of our culture’s thoughts that became my thoughts,” she wrote. “I wanted to talk about this because we see pictures of women and praise them for looking good, for looking fit or ‘healthy’, but what is health if you’re so obsessed with how your body looks that your mental health suffers and you can’t enjoy your life?Who am I trying to look attractive to and am I even attractive to myself if I can’t let go and relax and have fun and be playful on a nice day at the beach?”
“I haven’t gotten to the point in my journey yet where I can’t give f—k,” she continued candidly. “Intellectually, knowing what I look like doesn’t determine how healthy, happy, or sexy I am. Emotionally, the messages I get from our world resonate in my head. Ironically, all the therapy, all the inner work is about trying to feel like me at 7 on the beach I’m crying her today Happy, silly, breathing, pretending to be a mermaid, FREE.
Over the years, Cabello has been open about embracing her body as it is and blocking out her own intrusive thoughts and the opinions of others about her appearance. In a TikTok video last summer, the singer opened up about feeling insecure about her physical appearance, but came to the conclusion that “being at war with your body is so last season.”
“I’m grateful for this body that allows me to do what I have to do,” she said. “We are real women with curves, cellulite, stretch marks and fat. And we gotta own that, baby.
In 2019, she also took a moment on her Instagram Stories to respond to shameful comments made about her, which she came across while trying to find a photo to post for the second anniversary of her song “Havana.”
“Honestly the first thing I felt was super insecure just imagining what these pictures must be like, oh no! My cellulite! she wrote. “Oh no! I didn’t suck my stomach! But then I thought… of course there’s bad footage, of course there’s bad angles, my body isn’t made of fucking rock, or any muscle for that matter.
She ended her post by addressing her young female audience directly, writing, “Girls, cellulite is normal. Fat is normal. It’s beautiful and natural. I will not buy into the bull – today!!!! Not today satan. And I hope you don’t either.